God restored me

God sent His only son Jesus to restore creation back to Himself. The key here is restoration, for I am a broken and flawed man but God (The King of kings, and Lord of lords) still desired to heal my brokenness and bring me back into right relationship with Himself. THE CREATOR OF THIS ENTIRE WORLD WHO IS GOD ABOVE ALL OTHER gods wants to set ME free from brokenness and death so that I can have a personal relationship with HIM! Unfortunately, this revelation took a while for me to fully understand and to sink into my heart though.

Fear plagued my life from a very young age due to a number events. First, I was born into a stressful atmosphere as my mother nearly died due to the amount of blood that she lost during my delivery. Over the next few years I began to experience migraines during the day and constant night terrors after I was sexually abused by a family friend. During elementary school and high school when children need their parents’ affirmations the most, my earthly father became extremely abusive, lashing out, saying that I am “unloveable” and “would never amount to anything”. These experiences caused me to act out in school and quickly become a lost sheep.

I grew up in Christian schooling where I had a few profound experiences with God, but nothing really stuck until I experienced the Holy Spirit in my 20s. Consequently, I went off to college, joined a fraternity, and found “wholeness” through parties and excessively drinking with my fraternity brothers. I got into very unhealthy relationships which ultimately made me depressed and anxious. Even though I was an A student at a top university, my exterior looked “shiny” and promising, but I was broken, hurt, and constantly living in a state of chaos and depravity.

After graduating university, I went back to my home church where I ultimately encountered the Holy Spirit. Before this experience, I knew God was real but I thought He was somewhere in the universe just hanging out - not concerned with Chris. Once I experienced the Holy Spirit though (wow)  my entire world shifted: God was VERY MUCH relevant / active today; He absolutely wanted to heal all of my brokenness and have a personal relationship with me!

God healed many areas during this new season. One of my favorite examples is how God supernaturally healed me from depression, which He replaced with supernatural joy that manifests even during times where I would have normally experienced sadness.

Bottom line: It does not matter what we have been through or intentionally acted out, Jesus will always be our biggest advocate and lover! There is nothing that I have done in the past or will do in the future that will cause God’s love to change. Instead of being religious and focusing on all of the hoops that I need to jump through in order to make myself lovable to my Creator, I choose to focus on the finished work of Christ on the cross and how all of my sins have been forgiven! Christ now lives in me, and through constant relationship with Him,  I am a conduit to bring His presence wherever I go!

I am passionate about Jesus because He has restored me, and that passion makes me want to help set others free so that the KING of kings can restore them to wholeness.