Even in the uncertainty, He is faithful

Key message: It may not feel like it at the time but God will never give you a load you cannot carry and He ALWAYS has your back!

2020 was meant to be the best year of our lives, but it didn’t start out that way. We were due to get married in May and we were 90% of the way through our wedding planning when we received the shocking news that one my fiancé’s groomsmen had committed suicide ☹. As you can imagine, this was a really big blow for us, particularly for my fiancé who had grown up with him and they had a really close relationship.

Obviously, this bought wedding planning to an abrupt halt in the worst way and it didn’t feel like we could grieve properly because of everything that we had going on with the wedding which was really hard. This time prayer was really important for me. Through prayer, I felt like I could share my worries and be strong for my fiancé. We grieved and started healing and just when we thought things were getting back on track and we could look forward to the wedding again cue…COVID 19.

We were keeping up with the news and we saw that the situation was changing and gradually getting closer to home and I feel like God told me to take precautions and get wedding insurance, which was something that I had completely dismissed earlier on despite the amount of money we were investing in the event (which is insane!!…brides to be: as soon as you decide on your date wedding insurance is a MUST!!). Now that I can look back I am so thankful I did.

As the number of positive cases went up so did our worry, then the government announced the ban on large gatherings and the eventually the lockdown. This meant that we had no choice but to reschedule the wedding. At first, I was really sad that we had to make this decision, but then I realised that there seeing everything happening in the world, I was just SO THANKFUL that all my family and friends were safe and well.

We then discussed when our new wedding date should be and this was really difficult because we didn’t want to wait too long but we also didn’t want to be in a situation where we are having to reschedule again, so we decided on January 2021. Following a discussion with our vendors, all agreed to honour the original price paid regardless of the date we choose (thank God!), apart from our venue. If we chose a new date we would be looking at either a shorter event length (from 7am to 4pm) for the same price or a £1,400 increase in price for the event length we wanted. I know reading that you must be thinking that this is so awful but…it all turned out okay because our insurers agreed to cover all the increased costs and all the dated items that we could no longer use - please isn’t GOD SOO GOOD?! 😊

Although the landscape ahead is uncertainty, this period has taught me that God is constant. He has brought us a lot of peace and comfort in a really turbulent period of our lives. I know January for many of you must feel like the worst/coldest month that you could get married in but for us, this is actually a very significant month (and the only month we should get married in!) - it was our original anniversary month, for us becoming a couple and getting engaged (literally days apart!) so it has ultimately still felt like a blessing.

The thing that I have learnt from this experience is that despite what you have planned God will have something different planned, and as hard as it may be we need to TRUST that he has us covered and will never give us a load we cannot carry. Keep the faith and trust in Him. He is always faithful.